So,I got a call from my doctor. They had run some tests on me the week before Christmas and the results finally came back. She told me I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. And then to add to that, I am insulin resistant. It scared me just a bit because it just means I am on my way to pre diabetes and so it is time to be serious about eating better. As of today, I will not be eating sugar for 3 weeks and then I will add it in slowly. I am going to go on the South Beach diet because it will help with this. It concentrates on cutting out sugar, white flour, and processed foods. I am such a sugaraholic that it will be tough for me but I know it is time to just do it. Otherwise I will end up diabetic and/or not be able to get pregnant. With PCOS you can get pregnant but it is much harder.
I have had a hard time lately about having-or not having- children. It has now been 6 years since we started trying and I am just ready to be a mom. I have been told for 6 years that I am overweight and all I need to do is lose weight and then i would be able to get pregnant. Well, I kindof rebelled against those comments by the doctors and did not do anything. But about 3 months ago, right before I decided to start running, I just got so sad and upset about not getting pregnant that I finally knew it was time for me to try to do what I can to make my body healthy and then hopefully the Lord will step in and help with sending me a child. For 6 years I have looked at my family, friends and others... and just thought "how come they can get pregnant so easy? Why is it so hard for me?" I have never had harsh feelings towards others that have kids, but there has always been an aching in my heart for the chance to be blessed with a child. I long to be a mother and for Donald to be a father. So, this is it. I am going to try my hardest to eat better, exercise regularly and have faith that something will happen.
I know Heavenly Father watches over each of us and knows our hearts and desires. I just hope that we are blessed soon with a child.
If anybody, has info about PCOS or other helps with recipes, websites or info please share!
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Melissa,
I too have been trying to get pregnant for six years. Well, it will be six years in February! I understand the heartaches and stress that come w/ not being able to have children when everyone around you has cute little ones. I had a septum in my uterus and endometriosis but had sergury to clear that up 2 1/2 years ago and still I can't seem to figure out what's wrong. I've been on fertility medication off and on for the past year and we've tried IUI for the past 4 months w/ no results. It's difficult not to get upset and to leave the fear and discouragement in the Lord's hands. I can feel the weight lifted so much when I'm in tune w/ the Spirit, but for some reason that's difficult for me to maintain. Anyway, hang in there. Hopefully there will be happy endings for both of us!
Hey there, it's me again. Tom and I have thought a lot about adoption and will definitely look into it. Tom really wants to exhaust all our medical options first and see where that takes us. But as time continues to tick by w/ no results I think more and more of how we could love any child who came into our home. It's been a blessing to watch Mandy and Sheldon w/ their little Conner. How he's been theirs completely from the moment he came into their home.
Are you and Donald thinking about adoption? You still have a lot of medical options available for you to try first. It truly is amazing how much the doctor's can do. It's just heartbreaking when it doesn't work. We're taking a break this month, which was much needed, and then we're going to try IUI again for a couple more months. If that doesn't work we're looking into doing IVF in the fall.
I don't know how it's all going to work out, which is definitely the hardest part, but I know that we have to try everything in our power and then hope for the best.
Good luck Melissa! I'll be praying for both of us.
hey melissa! you are an inspiration to me. i know the feeling of wanting something so bad and it appears that everyone around you has it and you don't. i'm struggling with that myself. but like you said, we do what we can and leave it to the Lord. i figure this is my time to take care of myself and hopefully the future will lead to more.
as for the medical situation, the nutritionist i went to said that often insulin resistance accompanies PCOS. i have a good friend who has that condition, and she has recently been able to lose a lot of weight and get things under control, with the help of her endocrinologist. hopefully that gives you some hope and inspiration.
as for me, i was told i have a "metabolic disorder", which explains why it is very hard for me to lose weight, and it can also lead to diabetes. i could basically starve myself, and still not lose weight. so like many people my resolution this year has to do with healthy eating and exercise, but is for a more important reason than looks or even the number on the scale. i'm going to try to start running, and hopefully i'll get into it like you have. like i said, you're a great inspiration. this is a long comment..., but hopefully 2009 will be a great year for both of us!
oh, and the nutritionist also recommended the recipes from the south beach diet. so as far as i know, you're doing all the same things i should be doing too. although, it appears you're better at committing yourself to do it than i am...
Melissa,
Hey its your mom in law. Did they put you on metformin for your polycystic ovarian disease? If they haven't you might ask them about it. It will help the insulin that you are producing enter your cells and be more effective and in return use your carbohydrates for energy instead of storing them as fat.
You are an inspiration as some of your other comments have said. I can't even imagine how I would be handling what you are going through. If I had not had my boys so young I may have been in the same situation becuase I also have PCOD. My metformin has been increased to 1000mg two times a day. I have lost almost 30 lbs this year and I know if I excercised like you do that it would be a lot more. Keep it up and I will try to start exercising.
I love you and I know that Heavenly Father will bless you.
Love your new Mexico MOM
I love you Melissa! I'm so sorry that the doctor had bad news- but it's good news too because now you know exactly what is wrong and you totally know how to overcome it. You can do it! I'm so proud of all you've done so far and I can't wait to keep watching because I KNOW you will succeed at this. I can't wait to hear the good news one of these days!!! :)
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